My Life, or Something Like It...

It's Sunday. Not much going on. It snowed last night, so I've been inside most of the day. Contemplating going outside. Being cooped up in my place has definitely given me more time to think.

Just called my mom and asked if she wanted to go for a walk. She declined. I said "Well, since you work I can't call you and ask you to go for a walk in the middle of the day during the week." And she replied: "Well, soon you won't be able to go for a walk during the day either. Don't you want a job?"

And, of course, the good girl that I am, replied, "Yes, of course. But I want a job I want, not just any ole job."

Truthfully, if my mischievous alter ego had a chance to respond she'd say, "I don't want just a job, I want a life. I want to live unconventionally. I want to write and take photos and travel. I want to explore the world. I don't want to be tied down to a nine-to-five existence."

Not only do I want a life, I want to meet a great man who's interesting, charming, smart, sexy as hell and hilarious. A man who thinks I'm fabulous, even on my bad days. One I can talk to and share my most intimate thoughts with. Someone who challenges me, roots for me. Someone who I can build up and motivate and flirt with, as well as lean on when I'm not as strong as I like to believe I am. Someone who gets me; someone I connect with, click with.

And with this "partner in crime," per se, I want to live a life that's fun and exciting to me, to us, with just the right amount of drama added in. I want to be free, to take risks, and to not just do things because everyone else would agree with them or say - "That's how I'd do it."

Is that too much to ask?

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Hello!
For those of you who have found my blog, welcome. I'm a "blogger virgin" so bear with me. However, as a writer, a creative type, if you will, I'm excited to share some of my thoughts with all of you. Today I am just starting out in this world of blogging, but it's apropos for my current state of mind.

For the past few weeks, I've been on a "temporary retirement" from work and trying to figure out what my next adventure will be. I'm debating leaving the New England area for warmer climates, or even thousands of miles. I'm grappling with a dilemma the Clash defines for me so well, "Should I stay or should I go now?"

Do I leave the familiar or do I stay? And whether I stay or go, what am I going to do here or there? Will I try to be a freelancer? Will I work for a big corporation or a smaller agency? Do I want to write for a living? Do I even want to be in communications?

I was telling my friend over lunch, I worry that if I leave everyone and everything behind that I know, will I get homesick and lonely and all for a job? But if I stay, will I always be wondering what else is out there for me?

So much to think about, or in my case, overthink about. But, I know I will get there. At least I hope so. I kind of have to. Any ideas? Any thoughts? If anyone wants to share any insights I'd be happy to have them.